Absolutely heartbroken :(

[RiccoRocco]

I’m struggling to cope with losing my furry friend and just wanted to share my experience to offload really, I hope this will help me to heal.

I rescued Mr Peanut last July, he was only one years old and had been neglected most of his life. When I got him he was so grumpy and sad and used to grunt at me constantly. I knew we were meant for each other because when I went to visit him before deciding to rescue from the centre, he came and put his head on my knee and let me stroke him. I took that as a sign that he knew I’d care for him, I feel like it was fate.

I spent hours and hours with him (he was an indoor bun). I used to lay on the floor and feed him vegetables and hay every day for months until eventually he started to show a loving and warm personality, a bunny that loved food and loved to play.

Unfortunately not long after I rescued him Mr Pea got a sore eye so I took him to the vets. They suspected an infection And gave him eye drops. These didn’t work and his eye got worse. He withdrew from life and seemed in pain a lot of the time. We had him x rayed and it showed a mass in his jaw bone alongside very damaged tooth roots. The vet said it was likely to be osteomyelitis and the prognosis was poor but we could manage it for now. Pea was put on metacam permanently and a course of antibiotics.

He survived like this for about 9 months and lived a happy and joyous life; I even got him bonded to our other bunny and he was so happy. I felt so happy that he was experiencing al the good things life has to offer after such a crappy start to his life.

Then suddenly he got a huge growth on his cheek below his eye; straight to the vets who prescribed depocillin injections which I had to give every other day, he hated these but they did the trick for two weeks.

Last week his growth came back with a vengeance; his eye glued shut and he was sad, although still enjoyed snuggles and food. Then on Wednesday I came home from work and noticed the growth had gone and what was left was a trrroble smell and skin on his cheek that didn’t look good. We rushed him to the vet who was ridiculously unhelpful and said she didn’t know if his eye was good and that his cheek was necrotic and would fall off. She literally sent us home and said we should come back when he gets a hole in his cheek.

We took Pea home and discussed our options; we knew it was probably time to let him go but I so didn’t want to. Wednesday night I gave him a little extra metacam so he could truly relax (he really seemed pain free for the first time in a long time). We decided to take him back to the vets and demand some help, whatever that may be.

Last night, with a very heavy heart we made our way to the vets with Pea. I cried literally all day and was shaking by the time we got there, I couldn’t bare the thought of ending his life; he was literally my whole world.
The vet saw him and said we couldn’t take him home; our options were to remove his eye but that his osteomyelitis had spread and this would leave an open wound basically perfect for further infection. He would suffer and in the end it would never cure the real illness. The vet said the best thing to do would be to PTS and we agreed. I cried. I gave him his favourite biscuits and held him for as long as I could. I told him how sorry I am and that I love him. He laid in his basket and accepted the cuddles and in a way I think he knew.

The vet came and did the deed and I felt the life leave the room. I knew Pea had gone and he was no longer suffering and I felt relieved that he didn’t have to fight anymore. I said goodbye for the last time and left.

Since coming home I feel empty. My other rabbit is lost without him and wants cuddles al the time and together we feel so sad. The house is so quiet without him and I don’t know how to cope with the loss. I know he had a good life with me and was loved to the fullest and for that I’m grateful. I just wish I could have him back.

Losing Mr Pea has been the hardest thing and I know this is long and I’m sure people won’t make it to the end but I guess this is my tribute to him and his life.

Mr Pea you were loved more than life; still are, and I hope you come back as something wonderful because you deserve the world.

Xx

[Gordo and Janice]

So heartbreaking. I am crying with you. Such a sad and wonderful story all at the same time. I feel your pain. Bless you for taking him in and caring for him so. I agree it had to be fate. It is like he knew. Not many people would go to the extreme you did. I have been present in putting a pet to sleep and I felt the life leave. Such a painful painful heart wrenching experience. You probably already know that you just have to go through this grief and feeling the loss and time will be your healer. We are here to listen and empathize. I would love to see a picture of Mr. Pea if you feel you could upload one. I always like to see the precious little ones that were loved so dearly. Put a face with the name and story so to speak.

You should be grateful. And I am grateful to you for giving him the life you did and loving him to the degree you did. Thank you for sharing him and his story.

Again my heart goes out to you and you guys are in my thoughts.

Binky free {{{Mr. Pea}}}

[Sirius&Luna]

Mr Pea is so lucky that you rescued him, and that he got to spend the last 10 months of his life with you. It sounds like he had a wonderful life with you, and you did everything you could to help him through a horrible illness. I’m sure he knew how loved he was.

In time, you’ll be able to remember the joy he brought you and the happy life he had without feeling heartbroken. Many people here know how you feel. The problem with rabbits is that we pay for how magical they are with them being equally fragile.

Binky free Mr Peanut <3

[RiccoRocco]

Thank you so much for your kind messages, it really does help.

He was honestly such a lovely soul. I miss his little face so much and I know we all miss our buns. I never really knew how it would feel until it happened to me, I didn’t think I’d take it so bad but he’s left such a huge hole and I don’t know how it will ever be filled

I’d love to post pics of him but I’m not sure how? Help appreciated!

Xx

[Sirius&Luna]

It’s amazing how much we can miss such tiny creatures!

To post photos, you need to be on a computer rather than a mobile. They also need to be not too large – I normally email them to myself from my iPhone, and click small when it asks how large I’d like to send them.
Press the green + at the bottom of the thread, rather than quick reply. Then you can choose to upload photos in the long reply section. Once you’ve uploaded them, click the button to insert them into post. It’s a bit longwinded!

[Phil]

Hi just read about Mr Pea, poor little bunny, he new how much you loved him, thank god you gave him love and care he needed so much, his life would have bee so much worse without you. Its awful shock as I know my Jasper died in jan at vets undergoing surgery, I wasn’t even there for him its been so awful every day since. My heart goes out to you. If you contact Bam forum leader she do pictures by sending her email. Life’s so tough x

[Phil]

Hi just read about Mr Pea, poor little bunny, he new how much you loved him, thank god you gave him love and care he needed so much, his life would have bee so much worse without you. Its awful shock as I know my Jasper died in jan at vets undergoing surgery, I wasn’t even there for him its been so awful every day since. My heart goes out to you. If you contact Bam forum leader she do pictures by sending her email. Life’s so tough x

[RiccoRocco]

So sorry to hear about Jasper they really do bring so much to us in the short time they are here.

Thank you for the advice about the pics, I’ll try posting some when I’m on my laptop later on tonight he was very handsome, such a special little boy ❤️

[Flakie]

I’m so sorry for the loss of your Mr Pea. I am also so glad you were able to care for him for the short time you had with him and give him your love and the companionship of your other bunny.

So sad reading your story about his illness my heart goes out to you.

I have lost two bunnies and understand your grief and sadness it’s so hard losing these precious little creatures.

Binky free Mr Pea

[Phil]

Its so hard to tell people who have never had bunnies, how very special they, right from being born they are the most adorable animals ever. I thought absolute world of Jasper, he was my little light at the end of the tunnel, every day it told him how much I loved him, its so very hard to cope with, every time I hear of one going it breaks my heart, everyone’s bunny meens the world to them.

[Ellie from The Netherlands]

Sorry, couldn’t keep it dry as well. I’m so sorry for your loss :'( I can feel the love reading the text. Your bond was absolutely amazing and he must have been so thankful that you’ve rescued him. You gave him all a bunny could wish for, right up until the end. It’s the worst decision to make as a bunny owner… He’s free from pain and binkying over the rainbow bridge right now, binky free Mr. Pea!

[RiccoRocco]

Today is a new day and I still miss him as much as yesterday and the day before.

I keep expecting him to just be there and it’s so hard to not call his name

One thing this experience has given me is that I know mr Pea would eventually want me to give a life to another bunny that has been abused. I feel I owe him that. Not yet though, maybe in time I’ll feel less pain and be ready.

Today I walked past the Body Shop and in the UK they have adverts in the windows with a bunny that says they are against animal testing. That bunny looks so much like Mr Pea. It made me cry and I looked like such an oddball blubbering in the window of the shop haha!

I will post some pics later when I get on my laptop, I’d love for you to meet him; he loved being called handsome

Xx

[Phil]

So sad I feel just same, every day l expect to see my Jasper.

[Thomas]

Im so sorry for your terrible lost. I can feel you too .
Just lost marsha, a cute, energetic and innocent faced bun yesterday on his way to the vet. Now i feel so empty . Cant stop thinking of her. Everytime I see her empty cage my memories fly away

Binky free Mr. Pea

[September]

Bless you for loving and caring for Mr Peanut, even though it was for a short time. I come here because it was such a place of comfort after loosing my Timothy, but every story of another bunny angel hurts my heart.

Just close your eyes and you will see Mr Pea at the Bridge, happy and healthy.

Xxx

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