My baby boy Moonshine

[Sonn]

I am part of this section of the forum entirely too often. I don’t know if I am just a horrible bun bun mom or if I have the worst luck ever.

I posted a little while ago about Moonshine having teeth extracted. He recovered well but then started drooling a bit again and didn’t want to eat. So we went back to the vet who determined he had one more tooth that needed to be removed. I agreed since he wasn’t wanting to eat. 

He went in Saturday morning and was his big floppy excited self trying to fit in everyone’s lap and doing binkies up a storm in the exam room. The vet assistant came in and fed him some slurry and banana baby food which he gladly ate and drank some water and even nibbled a little bit on some hay. I left feeling confident that he was going to be just fine. 

They called a few hours later saying he had come out of surgery fine and was recovering.

At 9pm on Saturday they emailed me and let me know he ate a strawberry on his own and was slowly nibbling on hay. 

Sunday morning I got a call that he was acting a bit lethargic and wanted permission to keep him overnight again to just observe him. I agreed and went to visit him around noon. He stuck his face through the bars immediately for nose rubs. I scooped him up and we cuddled for a few minutes before he wanted down. He was running around but kind of went wobbly and laid down. A few seconds later he got back up and was doing binkies. 

I left since I didn’t want to excite him too much but started to worry. 

They called an hour later asking for permission to run tests because he was getting even more lethargic. I of course agreed. All of his tests came back find except his heart rate was abnormally high. 

Monday morning at 5am I got a call. The vet told me to come immediately to the office. I broke more than a few speeding violations. 

When I got there I broke. My big baby my floppy amazing smart funny baby was a bloody mess and unresponsive. The vet told me during a shift change he started seizing and bashed his face against the bars. They immediately removed him from the cage and set him on a blanket on the floor. I was told he began screaming and bit the tip of his tongue off before calming. He was now unresponsive to any stimuli but still alive. 

Not even 30 seconds later he started screaming again. A sound I will never forget. He was clearly struggling and I was told it was unlikely he was going to recover. Every few seconds he would start screaming and flinging his back legs. 

It was decided I had to let my baby go. I wrapped him up in the blanket he was on and cleaned off his face and held him while he passed. 

Now I am sitting at home looking at his cage and all of his toys and all of the toys and cuddles I bought him for Christmas and just can’t believe he isn’t coming home. He should be home. He should be here annoying the Christmas tree and terrorizing the cats. He should be here begging for treats and thumping when he doesn’t get his way. 

I won’t be adopting another bun for a long while. I love them and I want to save them all but for now it is going to have to hands off. My heart is torn into a million pieces. 

I am donating his cage and all of his new toys to a rescue and making a Christmas donation in all of my bun babies names.

Binky Free my baby. 

[Luna]

I’m so sorry Sonn . This past year has indeed been horrible to you, but you are NOT a horrible bun mom. My heart goes out to you.

Binky free Moonshine

[LittlePuffyTail]

Sonn, I’m so very sorry. I am deeply saddened to see Moonshine in the RB section. How horrible and sad what you’ve been through. I’m just really torn up for you….

I wish there were words that I could say, but since there are none, I’m just going to send a big (((Hug)))) and reassure you that you were a wonderful bunny Mom.

Moonshine and all your other babies were so very lucky to have you. It does seem like you’ve had a streak of bad luck, I’ll admit. But so have I and I know I’m a wonderful fur-Mom. In 2016, I lost 5 of my babies.

My inbox is always open. I know how hard it hurts and I’m always here for you.

(((((Binky Free Moonshine)))))

[Bam]

Sonn, I’m so sorry. It’s heartbreaking. You’re a wonderful animal mom, and this wasn’t sth you could’ve prevented. It was just unfair and horrible. I can very well understand how this dreadful experience must have hurt your heart deeply. I still hope you’ll have rabbits again, sometime in the far future, because you are a true animal person and there will always be rabbits that need you.

Moonshine had the best, most understanding mom and you did everything for him. I remember how you were prepared to let him live as an aggressive monster in your household if his aggression couldn’t be remedied (which it could).

Binky free, sweet beautiful ****Moonshine****

[Sonn]

Thank you everyone.

I will have rabbits again someday but for now I need to take a step back. Aside from dogs rabbits are my absolute favorite pet.

Being owned by buns is hard but I love every second of it.

[jerseygirl]

Oh Sonn, Im sorry I missed this. So very sorry for what you’ve been through.
***Binky Free, Moonshine*** Goofy boy. You were loved!

[Q8bunny]

This is heartbreaking, Sonn. I’m so sorry he had such a rough year… at least now he’s at peace. (((Binky free, Moonshine)))

[Sonn]

Thank you, again. I miss him so much. I miss the thumps of a bun in the mornings and the excitement every time i walked into the room. I miss having a bun bun.

[Vienna Blue in France]

Ohhh Sonn. I missed this too.
I’m so very sorry for your loss.
You ARE a great Mom. They were sooooo lucky to have you and you WILL open your heart a teensyweensy tiny bit in a while and some furbaby will squeeze through that teensyweensy hole and fill your life and house with floating hair and scattered poops once again.

(((( hugs ))))

[LBJ10]

OMG, how did I miss this thread? I’m heartbroken to read this Sonn. You have experienced so much loss over the last few years. I’m so sorry. We all loved Moonshine so very much.

[DanaNM]

Sonn, I am so so sorry for your loss.

And for the traumatic experience you have had.

Moonshine’s story sounds all too much like my Moose, who we just lost suddenly on New Years Day. He too had a history of dental extractions… but it seems there was something much more serious underlying it all.

It does seem like you have just had terrible luck, you seem like an amazing bunny mum. I’m starting to wonder if the best bunny mum’s and dad’s are somehow magnets for extra special bunnies that have their time cut too short…

. . . The answers provided in this discussion are for general guideline purposes only. The information is not intended to diagnose or treat your pet. Seek the advice of your veterinarian or a qualified behaviorist.  

[Sonn]

Thank you again. I do miss having a little bun running around my house. But now is not the time for me. I started a new job and I am attempting to move across the country and don’t want to put a rabbit through that taking my old dogs is going to be a big enough challenge since neither travel well.

I’m still lurking around on the forum now and then.

I’ve lost a lot of buns but I do not regret any of them. Except maybe the copious amount of poop they produce…

This forum has been an amazing place to just grieve but also love all of the squishy faces.

[LittlePuffyTail]

(((((hugs))))) to you Sonn. We’ve enjoyed you being a member of a forum all these years.

[JackRabbit]

Oh Sonn! I’m so sorry! I haven’t been on in a while and missed this! I know its been hard on you. You’re such a wonderful bun parent and even though you’re taking a break from buns, with that big heart of yours, I know one day another bunny will find you.

Binky free Moonshine….

[Sonn]

I will have another bunny someday when the time is right. For now, I’m enjoyed stalking everyone’s threads and volunteering with the local rabbit rescue.

[MountainBuns]

I am deeply sorry. I almost broke into tears reading this. I want you to know you did all you could and your bunny is resting in peace. It must be so hard to go through that.

Binky free, sweet Moonshine. You mom will not be the only one who misses you, we do too.

[MimzMum]

Sonn, I am so sorry I am only now seeing this.
I couldn’t believe the title…not Moonshine, it just couldn’t be.
I am so very sorry he has gone. You may know I am now bunniless, having lost all three of mine last year. It is unimaginable how big a hole they leave in our hearts. Like you, bunnies seem like they were always meant to be a part of my life, but the loss of them is almost insurmountable. I totally understand why you are taking a step back, but don’t ever question whether you’re a good bun mom or not. There are far too many animals, in my memory of your time here on BB, that owe their lives to you and wouldn’t have had even a few moments without your kindness, warmth and how freely you opened your heart and home.
That is what animal companions need more than anything. You have always been there for them.
You are in one another’s hearts, now and forever.
Moonshine knows you loved him and no matter what was going on with him, it is the love he takes with him to the Bridge. It is the love you still have for him that reaches him.

I almost couldn’t breathe reading this post, but I can only imagine your heartbreak. I don’t know if you will see this message, but you can reach me through my inbox here any time you may need an ear.
Sending hugs for you, Sonn…. and binky free, Moonshine, you beautiful boy. <3

[bunnytowne]

Oh my no.  I Have tears in my eyes.  And sniffling.  Oh I dont knwo what to say.  I knwo you did everything possible.  No doubt there.  Yes it is hard to get another bun when you have lost one.  I know.  

So sorry for this loss.  

Yes Sonn I remember you.  I havent been on in a long time.  When Cotton passed I came back on.  

How heartbreaking for you. Yes when the time is right another bun will hop into your heart and take over your home.  

I miss the random bun poops lol.  I saved some of Cottons poop in a jar can you believe that.  How crazy.  lol.  I know tho nothing funny about losing a loved fur baby.  Buns are the best and ouch when they leave us.  

Sorry for what you have been through.  

[Sonn]

This is why I love this forum. Even though we’ve never met in person you guys give me comfort no one else is able to. When someone says “It was just a rabbit.” I know there are people I can come to who understand the pain of losing the thumping poop machines. I miss my babies every day. But even though when they pass I feel like I am the worst bun mom ever I know they were happy bouncy crazy rabbits. Even Monty (for those of you who remember him) who I think had plans to murder me while I slept, was a super happy boy.

I am not gone from the forum. I may not post much but I still read and laugh at the bunny woes of new bun parents. And I will adopt again one day and add to my ever-growing house of fur and scales.

I haven’t been on much for quite a while and I’m sorry that I missed the passing of rabbits I got great joy from seeing on the forum.

Sometimes life doesn’t go the way we plan. And while it still hurts to walk into the bunny room and not have a rabbit running up for pets or treats I have to believe that they are happy with my first bun baby Pacey meeting them at the bridge, and I have to believe there is a bunny out there that is just waiting to come home with me one day.

[MountainBuns]

I will remember you, will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by,
Weep not for the memories
Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad.
How clearly I first saw you smilin’ in the sun
Want to feel your warmth upon me
I want to be the one
I will remember you, will you remember me?

Sarah McLachlan’s I will remember you

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