It goes without saying that your first time will always be special.
Your first kiss, your first time riding a bike, your first day at school, your best friends. Those are the moments that will always stick with you. They're the memories that, even if it didnt go quite like you thought it would, will put a smile on your face when you think back to them.
The same goes for Kelly. My first bunny. I rember all the firsts.
The first time i saw the add online, the picture of her and her sister. I looked at her lovely face, and the adorable white stripe, and knew she was my bunny. I knew we were destined for each other. So without hesitation, a call was made.
I remember the first day i saw her in person. A precious, tiny, fluff wrapped up in a baby blanket in my arms. I was attached instantly.
The first time she ever came to my boyfriends; a skittish little cutey.
The first time i ever played with her.
After the second time escaping, i learned she was an escape artist.
The first time i brought her to my new house. She was doing nothing but binkying all over the bunny proofed room. I've never seen an animal more excited.
My most distinct? The first time i held her. My favorite? She would sit in my lap and watch as i cleaned out her litterbox.
But now? These memories are all i have. Its terrible losing something you love. Its worse when you lose something that you spent time with, something you watched grow up. Every move they made was because of you, every breath was because of you. You spent the time and love raising them, helping them thrive, to survive. Money never mattered, if it meant your little everything was happy. Everything is better when they're around.
But to have everything you've loved and cared for taken away from you in a second, it hard. Loneliness, confusion, denial, regret. Thats all your feeling. And then its the feeling of overwhelming loss and heartache. How could this be? Why did this happen? No it didnt happen... Yes it did.
My Christmas gift was coming home to a teary-eyed mother telling me that the animal i considered my child was gone. Im well aware that life goes on, and it will get better with time... All i want is my baby back.
Although this first didnt turn out quite like i had expected it to..
I could never have asked for a better first bunny, and i promise you will always be in my heart.
Rest in Peace
Kelly Nicole Foster
August 31st, 2010-December 26th, 2010
Kelly, know you'll be missed. I promise i'll see you again one day!