R.I.P my beloved Geronimo

[Sarah Loves Geronimo]

Hi everyone. I’m new to the BinkyBunny website. I have just lost my baby boy. He was old, about 8 years old and I knew the day would come. I just didn’t know the day would be today in my arms.. Geronimo was a Mini-Rex Lionhead. We had gotten him back in 2004. Me and him always spent time together. We had a special bond and he had a bond with our 3 dogs. I am coming to the conclusion if what if his death is my fault? To start of, I wanted to get my Geronimo better food than just hay and plain pellets. I had bought about 3 bags of pellets with many dried fruits and seeds by a brand names Kaytee. He would get a hay bowl on special occasions and would be fed snacks like carrots or Healthy Bits by Kaytee at the end of the week. This had been going on for about 2 months. Yesterday we decided to clean his cage which we saw that he had poop all over his feet butt and belly. It was mushy to. We gave him a bath and he was very calm and he let my blow dry his fur. We decided to change his diet to strictly plain pellets and hay. We checked on him after about 15 minutes and we saw he wasn’t eating anything or drinking anything. Me and my mom decided to check in on him in the morning.

As morning came my mom had woken me up and told me she didn’t think Geronimo would make it. I didn’t know what she was talking about and I decided to see him upstairs. The moment I saw him my eyes were filled with tears. He lay down in his cage not even moving, yet breathing. I didn’t know what was going on, although my mom had to go to work so I couldn’t take him to the vet. I looked on websites about what was wrong and they all informed me his organs were shutting down. I had no idea what to do. I cried for so long. I decided his last moments should be spent in his mama’s arms. I sang him a song that I made for him and I gave him kisses and loving.

I said, “Geronimo, baby. It’s your mama. I hope you live a great afterlife where you can poop and eat whatever and whenever you want. If your in pain, I won’t be mad if you leave me. I want you to be safe and happy and live a painless afterlife. I love you”. After a little bit of being in my arms, he freaked out and he started moving his arms uncontrollably. I laid him down right next to me on a towel and I cuddled him for the last time. I whispered ‘I love you and I’ll see you soon’. I heard him squeak a couple times and about a minute later he was dead. He died right next to me. I called my mom and she came home to comfort us. We are getting him cremated.

I’ve never dealt with the loss of a pet before, and I’m taking this hard. Especially since me and him bonded greatly. He was my baby and I will never forget him. Just the thought of knowing we have to get rid of his stuff soon is heart breaking. My youngest dog is curious why my baby is wrapped in a towel in his cage.. I’m so upset. My mom told me it was not my fault, that he has bowel problems before. I wanted to hold my baby in my arms longer, but my mom said it was unhealthy and wrapped him in a towel and put him in his cage. I closed his eyes so he wouldn’t see how sad we all were.

I am so upset.. What if I could’ve prevent this? All I know is that we only took him to the vet once and he was fine then. We had to get his nails clipped and poop taken off his bum. I also didn’t want to take him to the vet today because I heard they poke needles at them and the thought of that is just painful.

I must know.. Is there a way I can cope with this? I love Geronimo so much.. It’s heart breaking for me to see him die right next to me.. I love him forever..

[jerseygirl]

I’m really sorry for your loss. I’ve had my rabbit die right in front of me before and I know how much this hurts.
Sending you big virtual (((hugs))).

It’s next to impossible to know truly what took him. Even with necropsy, the answers are not always concrete. For what its worth, I feel it was probably due to his age.

I think it’s quite normal to look to blame oneself in a way. I’ve done this before also…
I guess it’s our way of trying to gain some small sense control of a situation that is out if our control really. Even if its a painful way to go about it. It’s a natural inclination but keep in mind, probably not healthy to blame yourself endlessly.
Geronimo certainly wouldn’t want that.

The movements you saw right before he passed is also a natural phase. Please try to not dwell on that too much. I know it is very difficult when a beloved pet passes away. Especially your 1st experience of it.

It’s clear you loved him very much.
***Binky Free Little One***

[jerseygirl]

By the way, please feel free to participate in the forums & share more about Geronimo. And photos too.
The folk here are always happy to talk rabbits, ones here now or ones gone on to the Bridge.

[Missy-Owner of Oreo]

I am so sorry for your loss. I recently just lost my own little bunny and am trying to cope… It’s not gonna be easy for either of us. But losing a pet is never meant to be easy.

All i can say is even though it hurts really bad, let yourself grieve. It hurts a lot but you have to let yourself grieve and give yourself time.

Wish I could offer more advise but that’s all I got right now.

But your bunny was loved greatly and he had a great owner in you, I can tell

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