I guess this is the place to post.  I miss Eddie so much.  Which is natural but I am doing better this week.  It's just that I had a dream last night that was really weird but in it, I had 4 rabbits and all looked like Eddie.  2 ended up getting sick and I couldn't seem to get them to the vet.  When my dog passed away, I had dreams about her and they always left me feeling like an emotional wreck the next day too.  I suffer from depression and I have learned techniques to try to pull myself out of it, but it's very easy to fall back into it.  Especially after having stupid dreams like that.  

Then I saw this article on facebook and now I feel like I messed up everything for Lollipop since she never got to see Eddie's body. 

www.coloradohrs.org/articles/care_r...d_dies.asp

But her behavior hasn't changed too much and she doesn't seem like she's searching for him.  So I think she's ok.  Plus there was no way I could've handled bringing Eddie back to the apartment.  I would've had a breakdown or something. 

I had a physical therapy appointment today and I wasn't gone very long, but I don't think she likes me leaving her.  I don't know.  Maybe I'm just projecting a heck of a lot.  I am tentatively starting to look for a new friend for us.  I got a call today from a lady who works at Red Door Shelter in Chicago.  I am in Peoria but I have a friend who lives in Chicago who got me in touch with them and the IL HRS.  I need to call her back and discuss possible bunnies.  But I also feel guilty for doing this as well.   I don't want to wait too long without a friend for Lolli though.  I'm just a mess today.  lol  Thanks for reading. 

It's okay to miss Eddie, we all miss Eddie too. You don't have to feel guilty at all for trying to get another friend for Lolli and you. By Eddies passing, he has let your heart open an area for another rabbit in need. He was very lucky to have you as a bunny mom and he would be very honored if you opened your house to another rabbit that needed a great home.

When we had to put our cat to sleep, I couldn't function at first. He was only 10 and went into kidney failure. I was playing in a show from "broadway by the bay" and just had to drop out and had to say "i had a death in the family" because I just had to make the world stop for a bit. Blah I'm going to burst into tears thinking about that.

Time really does heal, I know when people say it, it really doesn't mean anything to you now, but really it will happen. Try to surround yourself with things you love and spoil Lolli rotten and spend lots of time with her! She loves you! There is no rush in finding her a friend, buns do fine with just their owner too, always remember that!  *bear hugs*