I’ve never known so much heartbreak..

[DallasDelight]

35 days ago, I lost Dallas.
Yesterday, I lost my horse.

I can’t even believe it. Late the night before she colicked, we gave her a shot of banamine and walked her and she was good. Then woke up to her down, colicking again, and got the vet out immediately. And it was still too late. She was given a shot to ease the pain before anything.

I was there with her when she was euthanized – I’ve always said I would be for any of my animals..they’ve given me too much for me to not be there for them at the end and tell them goodbye..my pain is worth their comfort. It was the hardest decision I’ve ever made, and the most painful thing to see. I’ve never been there when ANY animal was put down.
I sat on the ground crying holding her head in my lap when she took her final breaths..telling her how much I love her and what a sweet, amazing girl she is. I sat there for a while, even after she was gone..tracing her face with my hands, kissing her forehead and trying desperately to remember the contours and soft feel of her beautiful face, the velvety feeling of her muzzle.(I cannot explain how the tears are flowing right now) I kept expecting, waiting, for her to raise her head..or blink her eyes. something. anything. and there was nothing.

I know in my heart it was the right decision…she was hurting. She let me know it was the right thing to do..when I led her to the lush grassy soft place I decided I wanted her to close her eyes for the last time, she took a huge sigh of relief and as soon as did I just knew she knew. and then she started eating grass…..she hadn’t been eating or even interested in eating at all…..she knew it was time to leave. I know she was thankful. But it still is breaking and killing me inside. I miss her so, so much. She was so young, and such a sweet beautiful soul.
I can’t even write anymore.

 

 edited to add…R.I.P Kyss.. April 4th, 2004 – September 14th, 2010. I love you baby.

 

[Andi]

DallasDelight, I am so sorry for your recent losses.
I know the pain you are feeling, the empty ache, as I had to say goodbye to some special friends of mine this year as well, including my dog Whizz, who i held as we said goodbye.
It hurts, but as the days turn into weeks, weeks into months that ache will lessen, though the memories will never fade.
I’m sending positive thoughts your way, you did all you could and made that hard selfless decision, carring about her and her pain over your own pain. Not everyone can do that, you are an amazing Mom to your animals, and they left this world knowing that and in peace.
I’m so sorry you have to go through this, two losses in such a short time is not fair for anyone. Lots of hugs your way and to your family.

Rest in Peace Kyss

[Monkeybun]

Oh I am so sorry What a bad month for you!! *hugs*

[Lintini]

Oh gosh I am so so sorry. Your words brought tears to my eyes. We lost our 36 year old horse Shawnee a few years back and I completely know how you feel. That was like losing and older brother. My thoughts will be with you and your family, I know Kyss is in a wonderful grassy meadow right now. *many hugs*

[bunnytowne]

my goodness.   that is a lot to go thru

[Elrohwen]

I am so so sorry for your loss. Putting a pet to sleep is the hardest decision you will ever make, but you made the right decision for your girl and I’m sure she’s thankful you were able to be brave and strong for her.

[stacyblue]

Im very sorry for your loss of both Dallas and Kyss RIP angels .My heart goes out to you in this very painful time stay strong as time goes by it will get easier and you will be left with the good memories of the joy they brought to your life .Hugssss to you

[kralspace]

oh Dallas, I’m so very sorry about both your bunny and your horse. Tomorrow will be 9 years since I had the same thing happen with my big mare Jessie. I got her when I was 16 and had to put her to sleep for the very same reason 33 years later. It’s terrible losing family members, but sitting there holding her head while they take those last breaths is something you never quite get over. I too sat there for a very long time with her because I couldn’t believe she was gone.

She was so young, but she had so much love from you. I will light a candle for both of you tonight because I know how very much it hurts your heart.

She’ll be grazing the meadows, keeping the grass short for the bunnies at the rainbow bridge,

Bunny hugs and sloppy horse kisses, Kathy

[GHbun]

so very sorry. please share more when you can. we’re here to help carry the burden.

[babybunsmum]

i’m so sorry. that is the hardest decision to have to make and so hard to stand by to watch. i’ve been thru it too. big big warm hugs of comfort go out to you.

[Alina]

I sending you energy, that is the hardest part of being a pet owner

[KatnipCrzy]

I am so sorry for your loss.   But you gave her the greatest gift of all when it really counted- you loved her enough to let her go peacefully.

 

[MimzMum]

I was so saddened to come in here tonight and see this post. ((((((hugs))))))))))) I am so sorry for your loss! My family had horses when I was little, and I’ve always loved them, but am too allergic to them now to ride one. Still, like bunnies (who are so much alike to them physiologically despite being a different species) they are such graceful and beautiful creatures. I am sorry to hear that Kyss passed at such a young age.

May God give you His peace and comfort. Bless you for having the courage to make this merciful decision for her. You will be in my prayers. ((((((((((more hugs)))))))))))

[RabbitPam]

I’m so sorry about your losses. That is truly heartbreaking.
{{{{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}}}}}

[Beka27]

HUGS!!! I’m so sorry… :o(

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