Life lesson learned by a rabbit.

[DallasDelight]

As my other thread states – I brought home a sweet, very young, dutch bun yesterday. Within 20 minutes of being around her, she taught me something that, even writing this now, is making me tear up.
For those who haven’t read the other thread – she was dropped off in a box at the animal control building during the night, from a home with many boys living there who severely abused her. Throwing her by her ears, cornering her and hurting her, chasing her, etc. She’s been through the ringer for such a little thing. Somehow…she is sweet as can be, willing to forgive, and willing to trust again.

It feels wrong to say that I rescued her. Because last night, SHE rescued a part of ME. A bunny the size of a shoe, hit home something people have been telling me for years. Something that I have never absorbed, never believed.
From the time I was 3 until we moved when I was 16, I suffered constant sexual abuse/rape by my step-grandfather and uncle. It did and has continued to destroy me inside. Of the many things I ‘learned’ from those experiences, it was that nobody was to be trusted – and I have held tight and stayed true to the motto that nobody is harmless. Nobody has my trust, not a single soul on this earth – not even my parents or sisters.. Therefore, that means nobody can betray it – because I never gave it to them to begin with.

But on the way home last night, as she was peeking out over the cardboard box to get a nose rub, it suddenly hit me like a brick wall. I should look up to her, in a way. We can relate to each other. What I learned was this:
She has suffered at the hands of those she should have been able to trust.
But even though she has been hurt, and she has every reason – every right – to turn away from the world, to shut down and to never, ever risk that kind of pain again…..she has not.
I am wrong, to never trust. Is it understandable I am fearful to lay my trust into anyones hands again? Yes, of course. But she is living proof that people can hurt you, but you shouldn’t not trust anybody, because someday – like her finding me – you’ll find someone who won’t EVER cause you the pain you have known before.

In dedication of the bravery of her, today I am changing. I am taking a step towards being stronger, wiser. I’m ending padlocking my trust away. They took so much from me, it seems they stole more than they left. But this, at least, I can keep. I want to be able to someday know that though yes, they took and changed a lot of me, they couldn’t stop me from being stronger than them….. trusting in people and knowing not everyone was as horrible a human being as they were.

Amazing that somebunny so small, can change something so huge for you.

[Sarita]

Hugs DallasDellight – that is beautiful. I’m glad you are feeling stronger and wiser.

[Sage Cat]

Way to go DallasDellight and to you new sweet Dutch bun!!!!!

{ { { { { { { { { { bunny kisses to you both } } } } } } } } }

[mrmac]

That is really great DallasDellight. I am glad that this little bunny could do that for you! It is amazing what you find in the most unexpected places sometimes. I am glad she inspired you! (((Hugs!)))

[Monkeybun]

They are remarkable little creatures, and I am glad that your new little friend has helped you to overcome such a horrible thing in your life. Hugs to you and your little dutch friend

[corpathina]

This is absolutely beautiful! I wish you luck on your inner journey, because those are always the hardest. But at least it helps to have such a wise companion, even if she is small and furry. Hugs to you both!!

[LoveChaCha]

I absolutely agree!
A fur ball so small can change someone’s life
I’m glad that you’ve got your little bun in your life.

I got my bunny after my mom passed away last year. My bunny was so scared when she came home, but 7 months later, she is a funny, loving little girl.

Animals have healing powers.

[jerseygirl]

she taught me something that, even writing this now, is making me tear up.

Oh gosh, am I ever tearing up also.
I only just read and saw pics of your sweet new bunny. I posted there about how I couldn’t understand how anyone could hurt something so sweet. Reading about what has happened to you, I feel like I’m shouting it again. However, I won’t go into that as I want to stay focused on this very positive step you’ve found courage to take thru your new friend. This is big and I thank you for sharing it.

[Beka27]

Hugs!!! You are such a strong person with a caring heart. You are a model of strength and bravery for all around you and you will do so much good in the world. I hate what has happened to you, but you will make it through.

(((((((Peaceful Vibes!))))))))

[GHbun]

My husband is a church worker and does a lot of personal counseling. I go with him when he’s working with a female because it puts her at ease and protects him from accusation. The life stories I’ve heard, the unimaginable betrayals that are out there, can make the world seem like such a sad and scary place. Then I’d come home and hug my kids and bunnies and the stress would lift. God gives us options, ways to escape the hurt, and we just have to be ready to see them. It’s not an accident that the two of you found each other at just this point. Good luck on your journey of joy.

[DallasDelight]

Thank you all for your very kind and supportive posts…. ((((hugs)))) to everyone!

I seriously debated sharing this, simply because it has always been extremely difficult for me to share without fearing that people will assume I did something wrong in those situations – to create them or not stop them – and blame me, as I’ve always done. A major part of why I didn’t tell a soul for 14 years, from the time it started.
But then I realized…the entire story of her making me realize that would be pointless and no longer true if I held it back because of that reasoning. Fearing the response of others. That post had to be my starting point, I had to trust the people here enough to think that nobody would put me at fault.

And being that you all obviously adore(beyond belief) buns…how could you all NOT be good people I can trust??
Thanks again everyone.

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