As you may have noticed I have not been on this website in a long time, life you know? This is so not the post I wanted to be able to post..... Flopsy died a week ago today. He had been sick for a couple of days & I had a vets appointment made for him for Monday. Sadly he did not make it. They offered to do an autopsy on Flopsy but I didn't want one done. In my mind it's better not knowing. 

  He wasn't the "perfect" bunny far from it. In the short time I had Flopsy he managed to- tear up my history textbook (boy that was hard to explain!), tear up my script for the play (again hard to explain) eat my tampons, chew a hole in the floor, escape from his cage multiple times, & generaly act like a grumpy old man. But I still loved him more than words can explain. He cracked me up daily being... well himself.

 It's still so hard for me to belive his gone. Every time I walk into my room I expect to see him laying on his little bunny "couch". But his not there. Waking up is the worst. I roll over in bed & it's such a huge shock to not see him. I hate it. I hope time will help heal the huge hole in my heart, though I know it will never fully go away.

  Most of all I hope Flopsy knows how much I love him. Ever day I beat myself up for all the times I got anoyed with him, & the time I was toying with the idea of finding him a new home. I know I wasn't the perfect bunny owner- at the time I got him I knew squat about bunnies- & I know I made plenty of mistakes. But he never once got angry & bit me. He always loved me fully & deeply & I thank him so so much for that. It seemed at times Flopsy was the only one I could talk to no matter if it was just stupid teenage drama or deep stuff it always seemed like he cared. I will never ever forget that.

  When I first got him I was a selfish 16 year old, but man when I looked into that dirty cage & saw that teeny tiny sick bunny something tugged at my heart. I'm so glad my friends & I shown up to early to that movie & went to that flea-market. I shudder to think what would have happened to him if we hadn't. He taught me so much in the very short time he was with me. Flopsy taught me how to love no matter what, & how to put people first ( that was hard for me to do before him). I'm only 17 now but I know I will never forget him. And one day when I get another bunny ( becouse we all know once you have one you can't stop!) I'm going to smile & think about all that I'm in for. Thanks Flopsy. I love you.

                      Binky Free Mr Grumpy Pants. I hope your having fun at rainbow bridge.

Awww...Sassy hugs to you.

I'm glad that Mr. Grumpy Pants had his excellent year with you. I will light a candle for Flopsy to cross the Bridge and be whole again.

I'm so sorry! Sounds like he had a good life while with you, he must have been very happy. He'll be waiting and playing on the other side of the Rainbow Bridge for you.

Binky Free Flopsy!

Sorry about the loss of your bunny. I'm sure he is thankful for the time he had with you.

{{{{Binky Free to the Bridge Flopsy}}}}

Aww I'm sorry to hear that! In another thread you asked if it gets easier. It does. It just takes time to let yourself heal. (((hugs!)))

Binky free Flopsy!

I'm so sorry to hear this. He sounded like your Heart Bunny for sure! That is a lovely tribute you've given him. It's evident you're very aware & thankful of what he brought to your life - which is great. Binky Free Flopsy Beautiful Rex Boy!
SassyGirl, for certain you gave him a better life than if he was left at that market. Even though it was too short, it was a home where I'm sure he felt loved. We're here for you on those days you're finding it hard without him. Be sure to come by.

Aww, geez, I am sooo sorry for your deep loss! You seem like a very thoughtful, responsible 17 year old! You did a good thing by taking him home and loving him for a year. It is exactly what he needed.

Hugs! I know it hurts when a bunny passes and you think back on the times you were annoyed or frustrated... but you did everything you could to give him the best life possible with what you had to work with. And like you put so well, someday in the future when another bunny finds his or her way into your heart, you will be an even better rabbit owner b/c of the lessons you learned and the mistakes you've made. Flopsy knows how much you loved him and wanted the very best for him.

Binky free Flopsy!

Thanks guys. It's getting a bit easier but the wounds still pretty fresh. I decided to scatter his ashes today in the part of the yard he loved so much. I was going to keep them but I figured ah he hated sitting still so what the heck I'll go ahead and scatter them. I do have a big frame of pics of him in my room though.

 My parents are being as supportive as they can. It's hard for them to understand though. My dad actually said something that hurt pretty deeply " I'll buy you a new bunny this weekend. There easily replacable" I know he was trying to help in his own way but that hurt. A lot. Flopsy was NOT just a bunny. He was the first animal I really conected to. As somebody said in another thread he was my heart bunny. There's no way to ever replace that.

 I'm not saying I'll never get another bunny of course. But it's going to be a little while. When I do think I'm ready though I'm going to adopt one. There's a bunny rescue in Houston called Bunny Buddies, it's a great rescue.

Your dad is just trying to help. Dad's can be that way sometimes, they don't always know the best way to go about things. I agree that running out and getting a new bunny is not necessarily the best thing right now. When the time is right, another bun will find you.

It sounds like he had a great first year with you. Years down the road you'll always remember him as the special bunny who started your bunny fascination.

Binky free, Flopsy!

I'm having a bad day I miss him so much. I didn't even go to school today, I'm just on this website crying. I wish I could throw a fit like a little kid & get him back. It hurts, so so much.

Sassy, I only read about Flopsy's passing today. I am so sorry you are feeling this pain of missing him! I want to say how proud i am of you for not giving him up when you felt overwhelmed with your schedule at one time. That's the best thing you could have done for him, to see him through his life even though it was short. And when he went missing temporarily, I recall, you wer frantically searching for him, he knew you loved him! --You will make a great owner of another Flopsy one day again! hugs.

I'm so sorry!!! *HUGS* ***Binky Free Flopsy***

I decided to scatter his ashes today in the part of the yard he loved so much. I was going to keep them but I figured ah he hated sitting still so what the heck I'll go ahead and scatter them.

I think that is so fitting, and special

I'm so sorry for your loss. I know it is hard. Hugs to you. Binky Free Grumpy Pants Flopsy!

I'm glad you learned so much from Flopsy. It's amazing the amount of love we can have for our bunnies and how much they can really affect our lives. Binky free, Flopsy!

I'm sorry Sassgirl, your heart animal will always be the most special creature in the world. My heart-dog passed away when I was 16 and I still miss her all the time.
Nothing will ever replace that hole in my heart but my bunnies...they created a new space in me, they made room for themselves in my heart and the instant it happened, I knew I was ready for another animal.
The same thing will happen to you. One day you'll see a rabbit (or something else) and just know that they're right for you.
And the Lord knows that I was a terrible bunny parent for the 1st six months of Charlie being with me, sometimes I know I'm still a terrible bunny parent and they know it too! But we do our best and we live and learn. My mother once said to me that as a parent, your best is never enough so you try to do more but your best is all you have. You gave your best, and you had to give your best to so many things at that one time! I remember how busy you were...it's not easy with school and family and everything else you have to do!
He knows you love him and one day you'll be able to remember him and laugh at his antics without bursting into tears. It takes a while, but it happens!