How weird would it be to dig Eddie up and have him cremated?
I was such a mess last week and have no money anyways. But I did a search of my area over the weekend and there is a pet cemetary/crematorium in a local town. They only do pets and cremate each pet separately so you know you are getting just your pets' ashes. Some places will cremate several at a time and then divy up the ashes. Anways, it would cost $65 for the cremation and then however much for the urn.
I have a sneaking suspicion I am being a tad crazy. It would be one thing if it just happened. The biggest sadness I have is that I don't have anything that was *his*. With my dog, I still have her pink bowl and collar. I have nothing that was necessarily Eddie's besides his wood box. Which he never did much with except to hop up on and stare at me cause he wanted out of the pen or treats. LOL
Apparently my vet takes a clay paw print of pets who have died so i was called today that that is ready to be picked up. So I will have that. Plus my cousin is an artist and I've asked to make me some kind of memorial picture - either a painting or sketch or something. I had a good cry last night and let it all out. I kept holding off cause I didn't want to accept that my Eddie was gone or deal with the pain. I will always mourn him and I'm not sure that I'll be able to look at pictures of him for very long. I can't of my dog without starting to cry but I am not feeling so desolate. I still get teary when I think of him. And apparently I won't be able to take baths for a while. lol Eddie used to have to come find me when I would take baths, so I left the door open and he'd hop around and check things out and then leave. I have tried to take a couple of baths and i just start remembering and crying. (I do take showers. lol)
I will quit rambling and asking weird questions. I had planned on cremating Eddie but it happened so suddenly I wasn't prepared. As we all do, I had figured he'd live to a good old age and I'd have the funds available.