How weird would it be to dig Eddie up and have him cremated? 

I was such a mess last week and have no money anyways.  But I did a search of my area over the weekend and there is a pet cemetary/crematorium in a local town.  They only do pets and cremate each pet separately so you know you are getting just your pets' ashes.  Some places will cremate several at a time and then divy up the ashes.  Anways, it would cost $65 for the cremation and then however much for the urn.  

I have a sneaking suspicion I am being a tad crazy.  It would be one thing if it just happened.  The biggest sadness I have is that I don't have anything that was *his*.  With my dog, I still have her pink bowl and collar.  I have nothing that was necessarily Eddie's besides his wood box.  Which he never did much with except to hop up on and stare at me cause he wanted out of the pen or treats.  LOL 

Apparently my vet takes a clay paw print of pets who have died so i was called today that that is ready to be picked up.  So I will have that.  Plus my cousin is an artist and I've asked to make me some kind of memorial picture - either a painting or sketch or something.  I had a good cry last night and let it all out.  I kept holding off cause I didn't want to accept that my Eddie was gone or deal with the pain.  I will always mourn him and I'm not sure that I'll be able to look at pictures of him for very long.  I can't of my dog without starting to cry but I am not feeling so desolate.  I still get teary when I think of him.  And apparently I won't be able to take baths for a while.  lol  Eddie used to have to come find me when I would take baths, so I left the door open and he'd hop around and check things out and then leave.  I have tried to take a couple of baths and i just start remembering and crying.  (I do take showers. lol) 

I will quit rambling and asking weird questions.  I had planned on cremating Eddie but it happened so suddenly I wasn't prepared.  As we all do, I had figured he'd live to a good old age and I'd have the funds available. 

Well it hasn't been very long since he passed. Did you place him in something?  Check with the crematorium if they accept exhumed pets. You do what you think will give you closure. I would worry what actually exhuming him would do for your own peace of mind though. That could be very difficult. Talk to the operators as they would have experience in talking with people who have lost pets and some of those details that are not normally discussed.

For me, I don't really think of the body as them anymore. Directly after a pet has passed I would, as that would be a tangible thing I would need at that time. But after I would think of them in spirit and my own memories. When the time comes, I think I will bury pets and then after more time has past, I would plant something at the site. I like the idea of a new living thing springing from the spot where the body rests.

I can understand wanting to have something physical of him. Do you have a brush with his fur? Some members have kept fur in a special place. Plus the paw print is a nice idea. Another thing you might like to do is put together a booklet of photos of him and write a little about what he was up to, infuse it with his personality. That was a thing I got strongly about Eddie, his unique funny self! And it was your anecdotes that conveyed this so well.




 

I strongly suggest that if you do decide to cremate that you get a loved one to retrieve him. I think it would be too hard for any bunny Mommy to deal with. Did you bury him in your yard? If so, I would also suggest what Jersey did: plant a tree. You could plant a beautiful flowering bush and think of him each time the flowers bloom and maybe make him a little monument marker. I did this with my guinea pigs. I took a large brick and painted a pretty design and their names on it. You could also order a little gravestone marker custom made with his name on it. There are tons of pet memorial sites online that sell these. I hope you can finally find peace with whatever you decide. I know how hard this it.** Hugs